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| fill in the blank yourself. i wont name any names, but it's funny when i see random people with away messages, fb status, etc. etc. only at the most opportunistic times of need. i'm no less guilty of this. why is it that we always cling to prayer when we're in heap of stress, trouble, or when things don't seem to be going right? how come we can't be in prayer when it's just the opposite? i think the Bible is pretty spot on when it talks about the battle against the flesh. i think we have something to learn from those peculiar Israelites that rebelled against God even though he provided for them miraculously throughout the 40 years in the wilderness: we are no different. raise your hand if you've been powerfully impacted by the power of Christ in the past, but today struggle to live a life in response? ::raises hand:: it's so funny when we see so many wonders and works of the Holy Spirit clearly in our lives only to find ourselves crawling back to our individualistic, self-seeking, i-can-do-it-on-my-own attitude. did you Christians ever consider that God might be placing obstacles in your life because He's so lovesick over us? did you ever consider the heart of God and how his heart is zealously jealous over us? haha ew, that sounded so cliche, but think about that for a second. we're so busy doing our own things in life, and the last thing we think about is prayer. whatever happened to the exhortation given to us in 1 Thessalonians where it calls us to pray without ceasing? is it so hard to humble ourselves and ask God for help? do we have to be in a time of crisis in order to turn to God for help? well, don't answer that last one if you don't want to, not like you'd answer ME anyways, but in God's eyes, you're exactly where He wants you to be - praying. prayer is our way of saying, "God, I can't do it, please help me." what makes us think that we are capable of doing anything at all without Him? why are we so stuffed and swollen with pride that we can't pray at all times? so, going through a time of dire crisis and need? GOOD FOR YOU! get on your knees and pray like you should be doing at all times. shame on you (and me), we should know better. shame shame shame... i urge you (and myself) to constantly maintain a prayerful life, seeking the wisdom and sovereignty of God at all times, lifting up prayers of supplication and praise and thanksgiving, and simply blessing His name. Matthew 6 tells us that when we pray, God already knows what we need before we ask Him, and not to be anxious. the birds of the air eat, the flowers and trees grow through the spring, and yet we worry about our days... we lack faith... have mercy on us God!! pray on brothers and sisters. | | |
| wow, what the heck happened to xanga? i have no idea how to use it now.
coming back to it feels like using windows vista for the first time. its sort of windows, but why is it so ridiculously not user friendly?
gg xanga, ur officially not user friendly.
i've had so many thoughts and experiences recently and i feel compelled to blog them again. for those of you who are interested, WB! if not, it's all good.
blogging has taken up a new importance to me. it's an outlet, also a good place to keep track of my spiritual status. it's gonna be a re-mix~~~ i'm talkin about no pseduo-holiness, totally doors-wide-open-oh-i'm-so-vulnerable blogging, which should be pretty cool. i realized that i made myself seem too holy and righteous like "oh man, that guy just got it goin on" type of vibe but it's SO not true. the Christian life? OUR struggle. so, i guess i'll leave it at that. i wonder who goes on this anymore anyway? eprop if u do^^ snappp... EPROP WARS hahahaha i remember those days... good days.
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| it's been a fresh experience coming back home and re-adjusting my life. i knew that one of the biggest voids in my life would be the fellowship of believers i had at Jubilee Church, but i had great confidence and strength in the Holy Spirit prior to returning.
to be frank, it's been getting hard lately! maybe it's the lack of consistency in my prayer life and personal worship with the Lord, but today i think all of the grieving i was doing in my spirit actually manifested into my flesh. ask my friend andy or my bros, i've been on emo attack mode!! i was stressed, i was actually starting to feel a "disconnect" from God, and for the first time in a while when someone said "God's presence is here" i had to ask myself, "why can't i tell? why can't i notice?" that's when i was shocked, grieved, and upset... of course, at myself. this ultimately lead me to worship him tonight starting at about 11PM. it still wasn't the same, i didn't feel that same connect. yes, some of you may tell me that Christianity isn't all about tangibility or "feeling good" but let me tell you, that is a lie from the pits of hell. God's presence can and should be felt daily and continuously! spiritual high? you think that's a phenomenon? that happens because for several days at retreats or conferences you're constantly engaged in worship and prayer to God! what do you think is the result for us spiritually? it's just as Paul wrote in his epistles... getting drunk, or high on the Holy Spirit. complacency in prayer and personal time feeding your spirit will result in death, and you'll forget how it feels altogether, being consumed by the desires of your mind and flesh.
i had a revelation about 30 minutes ago while reading through the introduction of Praying the Bible by Wesley Campbell, Stacey Campbell, and Mike Bickle... an excellent resource btw for ANY Christian whether young or old to really learn what it means to have a relationship with God. anyways, there was such a simplicity in what the author was writing that i, along with many Christians overlook.
prayer isn't just a motion, it's not something we "have to" or are "supposed to" do as Christians. it's an expression of our love for God. if there is one thing that every Christian should do daily without fail, it's prayer. why? it's where we initiate our relationship with God. prayer is a two way street. it's not just a time where we ask God for help, or for material things to satisfy our needs, but it's a time where we engage in prayer.
to sum it up, the church as has institutionalized prayer into chants, or has even taught us that it should be done in silence. both are correct and have great strength, but doing it out of tradition, or simply letting your mind wander while praying by yourself isn't prayer at all. it's about connecting your heart to God, a sincerity that brings us to a place we've never been.
i urge you, brothers and sisters, if you love Jesus then pray daily, and while praying get to know him. for you guys that have no idea how to do it, get the book i mentioned... it will produce spiritual breakthroughs for ALL who desire!
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| http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/10/11/student.arsenal/index.html
plymouth whitemarsh school is within 15 miles of my house. it's also within 5 miles of my church. it's also where my good friend bobby cho used to live. it's also where my buddy wonsuk used to go to school, and the list goes on. within a week of the ohio shooting happening, this is pretty unsettling...
so many thing to pray about, but so little time. Lord, have mercy on us
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| it's a new season in my life... a season of waiting in many different degrees!
God is far greater, i am much less 
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